Questions

What is this beast inside of me?

How do I win the battle in my life?

Why do I hurt the people I see?

When will I end my strife?

What is this beast inside of me,

That controls my life so easily?

What is this being that causes me

Such pain and sheer agony?

How can I be at war with myself,

Yet wish for peace around me?

How can I feel hate against myself,

Yet want hat to stop, and love to be?

Why do I hurt everyone I meet,

And blame them for my pain?

Why is my life full of deceit,

Lying my way for personal gain?

When will I end my strife,

This endless war between love and hate?

When will someone turn that blade of the knife,

Or is my pain my eternal fate?

Why is this beast controlling me?

When will I end the battle destroying my life?

How could I cause pain to the people I see?

What will cause the end of my strife?

November 1996