Hello world!
So many new toys…What do i do with them all? Over the past few weeks, I’ve joined several community websites…i just don’t know what to do with myself. Right now, my diary is sitting next to my computer…saying write in me…not on that machine. But there’s so much that I can do on my computer…it’s simply amazing!!! I just spent the last two hours posting on various discussion boards. it was fun.
So, as most of you know…or not, I work nights. Friday, Saturday and Sunday I become a vampire. I sleep during the day and i do all sorts of things throughout the night…mostly just walk around with a flashlight and several keys. But for the most part, i love my job. So I don’t sound like a poster “child” for Adult ADD, I’m going to try to create a little structure for this post. That being said, be advised of the random tangent. It is writing afterall.
So this is an introduction blog…so information about me:
Physical: I’m caucasian, male, 5′7.5″ 185#, brown hair, brown eyes. I’m the youngest of three, I have a brother (eldest) and sister, all separated by two years…give or take a couple months. My parents are divorced, my mom has been remarried and my father’s been remarried and divorced. He’s now involved in another long term relationship. My grandmother is an alcoholic. I don’t know how old she is (probably mid-80’s), smokes like a chimney in Russia and drinks like a fish (breathing the alcohol). She’s been with this guy named “slimey fat fucking slob who drinks too much and talks way too much about experience he’s never had and has nipples the size of quarters and I shouldn’t know that but I do because he’s a fat slob that walks around all the fucking time without a shirt on and probably thinks thats okay because he’s dick head.” He replaced my grandfather about two years after he passed away in 1992 (so around 1994 for those who can’t count). My other grandparents have also passes away. My mother’s father died in 1993, and his wife a year later.
More family dynamics: So my life. I’m single, bi-straight (meaning I’m openly attracted to men, but for the most part, I look for a female mate). I’ve never been married, been “engaged” once…although not to the person I wanted to marry, just some watery tart who thought she was really cool, when in fact she was a crazy psycho hose beast…even more than “Wendy” from Wayne’s World. Probably more will be added about her in the future. The one I really wanted to marry has been married for about 3 years now and I did some basic counseling for her this past winter…which was fun…NOT. My sister’s been married three times, engaged 4-6 times (she got engaged a lot before she married this last guy named Mark, all pretty quickly…and all ended pretty quickly). She has two kids: Jesse, who is the typical male seeking a good father kinda role model because he’s had too many people leave him kinda teen, and Monica who is the poster child for “Identified patient” and internalized oppression. She’s the “never been good enough to be anything less than daddy and mommy’s little angel.” Her brother’s just never been good enough…even though he’s a great fucking kid, smart as hell, too! My brother was the 30 year old virgin. He came to me the night before his first time asking for advice…nice huh? his first sexual partner was his wife. They’ve had their rough spots, but she’s great for him, and he’s doing better. They had or are having their second son…I’m not sure if he’s born yet because I haven’t received a thousand and one pictures yet. His name will be David. His older brother is Jonathan.
Career: So I currently work as a counselor for an addictions recovery home for boys. It’s fun, but its a lot like baby sitting…only now a days, babysitters get paid more… maybe not compared to this job. It’s very rewarding though, and was great for school. I could spend time reading, writing papers, or doing some other random thing…like blogging. The bad part, I’m alone for 6-8 hours of my 10 hour shift. The good part, I’m alone for 6-8 hours of my 10 hour shift. i can sleep (its not encourage), its 10 miles from home and a great bike ride. The people are really nice. The pay rate is awesome and there’s a raise about every 3 months. It’s in the field that i want to have a career in (perhaps not addictions…too close to home). And it’s got a great view (I’m watching the sun rise now…). I’ve also worked in an RTC (which you’ll probably hear stories about), waited tables, bartended and did various other jobs throughout my life. The one that keeps coming up though is key maker…I know way too much about keys and locks for my own good.
School: I’m currently taking a leave of absence from a graduate program in psychology called Contemplative psychotherapy through the Naropa University. That school seems to get lots of flak for its reputation. Regardless, the MACP program is it’s flagship program and is nationally (and possibly) internationally recognized. And it’s hard as fuck! I would do it a second time..but I’d probably do something differently. I graduated with a BA in Psych from Metro State in Denver, an AA in Psych from Red Rocks in Lakewood and got my diploma from Bear Creek also in Lakewood.
Hobbies: I like to read both fiction and non-fiction. I play computer games (mostly single player RPG’s, I hate MMOPRPGs). I enjoy surfing and messing around on the net. I enjoy writing my own script and helped with the original site for my marital arts club..but a lot has changed (I still update the information from time to time). I like to write stories, but I haven’t written much lately, besides poems. Which reminds me that I need to send a copy of one of my poems to a classmate of mine. And of course, I enjoy exercise, mostly hiking and biking, weight lifting and yoga. I have also been practicing martial arts (Taekwon Do) for about 18 years.
Religion: So I feel it’s important to include religion as a separate topic. I’ve always been fascinated by religion. It’s been a long journey and I’ve never technically “studied” them. I’ve read a lot of books, internet sites, discussion boards, and met people and practiced stuff… That being said, I’m a Wiccan Buddhist. I believe mostly that there is some form of higher power that lays the ground work. There is a lot of observation and some guidance a little support here and there (only when it’s absolutely necessary), but for the most part, we are allowed and encouraged to learn adapt and evolve on our own. I like the Buddhist idea that we are basically good. I interpret that as we are also basically male and female (interconnected), we are in essence the embodiment of the five elements of earth, air, fire, water and spirit (Buddhist interpret the fifth as space). These energies intermingle with our environment to provide our basic everyday experience. Some of us are naturally more attuned to one element over another…but for the most part, we are equal. I don’t believe in hell, I believe that our lives are a cycle of lives as our physical manifestation dies, we move into another physical manifestation. Ultimately, we will all reach a point where there is no death, but I don’t know what that state will be like.
I can’t think of anything else to add right now. As I become more adept at this whole blog thing, I will include pictures, links, attachments and various other nifty things. For now, you are left with my writing and my signature.
N’Aman (be blessed, JRR Tolkien’s Elven language from Noel’s “The Languages of Tolkien) *Note: this is the only time I will write what it means.
